I am back

I bet you thought that I wasn't coming back. Well, I have been a little down in the dumps. You see, I have major social anxiety disorder. It gets worse with every job I take and the treatment I get from bosses, co-workers, customers, etc. I cannot stand being around people. The only way I can really have friends is like people I have known forever or like a myspace or something. It is like an artificial friendship online. Those who I have known for awhile, I trust and we have an understanding. My ideal location is so far in the jungle that there is no civilization around.

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So tired you keep nodding

Don't you hate it when you are so sleepy that you can't keep your eyes open. I have a class of fourth graders today and I will be lucky if they don't kill each other. I can't wait to go home and sleep If I didn't have a parent-teacher conference directly after school....I would be catching some Z's.

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Back Home

I am glad to be back in Indiana. I had to go to Ohio because my oldest son was in a bad car accident. Everything on his body was broken. He is lucky to be alive. It was a long trip. I get to see my other son, the inmate Wednesday. I haven't seen him in over a month. But hey, what can I say, I gotta roll with the punches.

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Going on a road trip

I have to go to Ohio tomorrow because of my son's accident. I will be there for the whole weekend. He is a sick puppy and banged up pretty badly. It has to get better.

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I know I am strong!

Let me tell you. This has been a rough week and this is only Wednesday. I had to take my husband to the hospital. My oldest son was in a car accident. I found out my dad has Leukemia. It has been hard on me. I know that things have GOT TO look up soon. You know how they say that when it rains it pours!

Positive Attitude

I have a positive attitude today. With everything that has happened over the past week, I feel like today the sun is going to come out. I am proud at myself for my strength and perseverence. I figured since no one else pats me on the back that I will do it for myself. I am ready to go back to school and finish my teaching certification. That is so exciting. I am focused on what I need to do. I am more mature now. It took getting to this point in my life to be able to accomplish goals I had set out for myself. Thanks for listening. Drama Queen

good day!

Today my husband and I went out on a date. No kids, no worries, no stress. It was a nice getaway for us. I felt like a teenager again. I believe it is what we needed. Today was a perfect day. I couldn't have asked for anything better.

Kids

I have 3 kids with mental illnesses. Yes, it is overwhelming at times but I know everything well be alright. I guess these are signs of the times. Email me @ thayes1106@hotmail.com and tell me what you think.

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New Attitude

You know, I was upset because my daughter moved in with her grandmother this evening. I felt hurt and betrayed. I know that all things are only temporary. What doesn't kill you will make you stronger. I am writing a book right now called Drama Queen. I am very excited about it's completion which will be very soon. I have a lot of exciting things going on right now. I am not going to let it get me down.

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Donations

I would appreciate any donations that you could send. I am trying to maintain this blog and my family. Thank you.

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Stressed

I am wore out. I didn't do anything I was supposed to do today. I slept most of the day after being up most of the night fighting with my daughter and my husband. Have you noticed when you have a problem with a child, it affects your marriage? That's where I am at.

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Another Day, Another Dollar

I am back to the drawing board or chalkboard, should I say. I am at my daughter's school and I have her twice today. She wanted me to not tell anyone that I am her Mom. She is embarrassed because I am fat and cannot dress according to her. Nice, huh? I guess I am a little down today.

Vacation's Over

Well, it was back to work today. I am substitute teaching for a high school teacher today. It is not a bad assignment. At least I get to ease back into work instead of being thrown into it. I am determined to go back to school in August to finish my teaching certification and licensing. I cannot wait. Right now, I am substitute teaching, selling my own products, mystery shopping and trying to make money on my Weblo. I have been very busy. At least things are looking up. I am determined to keep my head above water until I go back to school. Send me your email addresses so I can add you to my blog so you can post. I also can be found on myspace @ thayes1106@myspace.com or hotmail....thayes1106@hotmail.com.

Everything always gets better

Yes, everything always gets better with time. It's like the highs and lows are what you can expect. Where is the middle ground. Can anyone hear me? I want to hear from others about their experiences. Get back with me.

SICK!

I have been sick for 4 days! I need to go to the doctor but my insurance has my assigned doctor to one out of town.....can't get a hold of anyone to change it. I may have to go to the emergency room because my ear is so infected. Still waiting on the boiler man!

Boiler went out!

Our boiler went out last night. We couldn't get a hold of the landlord....1 kerosene heater needed a new wick...has anyone ever tried to change a wick? Couldn't get anyone to help......below zero tonight.....finally got neighbors over to help......still cold! When it rains, it pours!

Life is Hard

It seems like when one thing goes wrong then everything goes wrong. Where are your friends and family when you are going through something? Sometimes total strangers are more of a help. It seems that every week and every month in this world that life is harder. My mom keeps saying that eventually people will have to live together in a communal setting. Single families she has said will no longer be able to function. What do you think? I know I am nervously optimistic about my future on this planet.