Behind on everything internet

Still trying to catch up on everything internet. My sixteen year old son went back to boy's school (on his way) for gun possession! I found it! He blames me for his going back! How is that, I don't know! My daughter is doing better on meds. I finally got my social security. That way I don't have to deal anymore with people! I am such a recluse!

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Too Much Going On

As you know....we have been having problems with my sixteen year old son. He got out of boy's school in July. He got arrested two weeks ago for having a gun in his room. He managed to stay out for four months this time. I tried my best to keep him out of lock up but it couldn't be helped. I guess I am depressed. What do you think?

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My Grandfather Died Last Week

Last week was a very tough week. My grandfather who has always been my hero died at 94. I am here to tell you that it was the most difficult and dreaded week of my life. My asshole son....he was like...my god....he was 94, what do you expect?! The longer you have with someone, the harder it is to say goodbye. You don't know how I hated leaving him at that cemetary. I had a hard time saying good bye.

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Crazy Life

As you know, I am homeschooling my 7 and 8 year olds. That's going good. My husband who got into the community college gets transported, tutored, you name it. I haven't had time to get my own self into school. My 16 year old dropped out of high school and I take back and forth to GED classes. He is still trying us with the pot and drinking....sneaking out at night. My daughter got caught shoplifting at KMART two weeks ago!!!!!! UGH! It's been insane. I haven't had time to think about getting online. I apologize to my readers. I am trying to keep up but I've had to let my things go...like always. Can anyone relate?

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The Blame Game

I don't know about in your family but anytime anything goes wrong around here, it's my fault. I have pretty much come to realize that I am going to be blamed. I can pick up my teenager's clothes off the floor and wash them...they get mad because they weren't dirty! Why were they on the floor? I have decided to write off everyone but my mom, my grandpa and immediate family...other than that, I don't communicate with anyone...why? Why set myself up for failure and frustration?

Ups and Downs

Yesterday my husband accused me of cheating with the neighbor's boyfriend. He took his medicine and got over it. My son went off on me and told me that my animals stunk and I needed to get rid of them. The whole time, the unusual odor was coming from the laundry which I haven't had time to do! I finally worked on it yesterday. Six people in this house and I can't get any help! I am so frustrated. They know I love my pets. I would rather deal with them than people. Our other next door neighbor's cable has been turned off and my husband got them started wanting to borrow dvds day and night. I am exhausted!

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Working Out Constantly

I am exhausted. My husband and I have been working out everyday. We either walk or weight train. I am trying very hard to regain my girly figure. I think maybe it will make me feel better about myself. I am disgusted with family and don't even think I will go to another reunion this summer.

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Why Don't People Like Me?

I don't understand because I am so nice to people. People hate me everywhere I go. I promise that I am not being paranoid. That's why I can't even work anymore. I am supposed to go to this social anxiety group on Tuesday evenings but I am too stressed about going to even go!!!!!

Husband Refuses to Quit

My husband refuses to quit smoking. Believe me, it will be the death of him! Went to his family reunion yesterday...lots of fun. His family barely spoke to me. His mother didn't say not even one word to me. It was awkward. I am disliking people more everyday. I hide in my house most days. My eight year old cried all day yesterday because he said no one liked him or wanted to play with him. I could relate because that's how I feel most days. The social anxiety gets worse everyday. To make it worse...my weight has me very depressed.

I feel destroyed

My husband is saying that I had someone in the house and they stole his cigerettes. I didn't even have anyone in the house. I tried lying and saying I took them but he didn't believe me. He says he isn't paying any bills in August. He won't even let us to the movie at the park tonight. I can't stop crying. I am exhausted, depressed and sometimes I don't feel like living...seriously.

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My dislike for people

I don't know why it seems like I can't get along with people. My doctor was just talking crazy to me today. I went in today because my feet hurt like crazy. This Diabetes is really hard on my body. She accused me of following up on my treatment and care. I haven't missed one appointment. My baby had one last week and after waiting in the waiting room for two hours...I decided to reschedule it. Then my son's parole officer was on a power trip today. I close my door when I get home and shut the world out. I hide under my covers!

I need a cow and some chickens

I should go buy some livestock! Can you imagine that! I live in a very urban area....trust me, I have the sirens to prove it. If it weren't for my crazy mutt...my house would be broken into like the rest. God forgive me....sometimes, I can't stand my teenagers!

Wow...the stress

Because we don't have very much money....I circle every week any free activities to do with the family. Understand...I am always thinking of others and not myself. I took the family to the park on Friday night. They have free outside movies. They played Shrek III. The two older one's did nothing but complain. It was the most unenjoyable experience I have ever had. Then yesterday, my husband and I went to move some furniture for his aunt...for a fee. Our teenage son wouldn't help....our daughter wouldn't babysit. It was awful. Today we spent 2 1/2 hours cleaning a friend's van for a fee. Because I got that back payment from SS for the kids....now I don't get food stamps in August. All that money went out on two month's worth of bills! Thank God for my garden. I took my food stamps in May and bought plants and seeds. I have quite the garden. It's a good thing because we are going to be vegetarians in August!!!! I will put the pictures of my garden on here....check them out!

Spoke too soon

Everything has been topsy-turvy today. My son and daughter were acting out. They are both jealous of my two younger kids. They aren't wanting to do chores or babysit. My husband and I have to take the two little ones everywhere for fear that the older ones will hurt them. My daughter has cried all day today. It has been stressful. I sent out 10 invitations for my Stanley Home party which was today and no one showed up. I can't stand people....I swear. I am so ready to be a hermit and a total recluse.

Peace

Things are actually going better. My son is out of boy's school. So far, so good. My daughter has straightened up a bit. Both my son who just was released and my eight year old son have been given SSI. We received some nice back payments so I was able to catch some bills up and get the kids ready for school. My eight year old son has schizophrenia like his dad. My husband has been a little less paranoid. My mom has been less whacko. All is good in the hood for now.

Born Bad?

In my years of parenting, it seems that if you are prone to have a child who is "bad" that there is nothing you can do. I have a son who has been in and out of one correctional facility or another since he was seven. My husband and I have gotten him every kind of help there is out there. We have read books,gone to parenting classes and sat in on what seems like hundreds of counseling sessions. Nothing has worked. The more we have tried, the worse it gets. The psychiatrist took him off of all medications because he says it is a personality disorder. He is innately evil. I know it is bad to say about my own child. It is true. The experts even say so. He gets out of boy's school "prison" Monday after doing a year. He is fifteen years old. Does something go wrong in the womb? He is not the only child that I have seen this way. I have seen plenty of kids that are "bad" from day 1 from dealing with these institutions which my son has been in. I would love to hear from others about it.

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One obstacle after another

It has been one obstacle after another....seriously! I have been waiting for my stimulus payment forever....found out it was intercepted for child support I owe on my 21 year old son....one of these days I will tell my readers about that whole situation. I also have money coming from Social Security but they sent it to an address I was at 5 years ago! I tried to contact the old apartment complex but they were no help! Meanwhile....all bills are behind! My grandfather who is 92 has been in the hospital for a week. He is very bad off. That has been very hard on me. My 15-year old son gets out of boy's school in a week. I really hope he is better when he gets home. I am going to lay down....gotta migraine and an upset stomach. I am waiting on this money so I can pay to take the GRE again....another $140 to get into school.....about to give up!

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Vacation from kids

My father in law picked up the kids and took them to Tennessee. It has been very relaxing. It has been like a second honeymoon for us. I guess my little ones are having a hard time being without me. I usually don't let them out of my sight. I am very protective. That's why the other day when my grandmother-in-law insulted my parenting skills I was so offended. My son hit my other son with a rock and his head was bleeding. I stopped the bleeding and put him on the couch where I could keep an eye on him. My husband freaked out and insisted on taking him to the er. He called his grandmother and I heard her over the phone asking him what kind of mother didn't take her kid to the hospital???? I said loudly enough for her to hear that I was the kind of mother who didn't take her kid to the hospital everytime they hurt themselves.

Stupid Test....

Oh and by the way, I didn't pass the GRE and must pay another $140 for it again! It's another hoop before I can get back into school. I am ready to give up!

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Still rolling.....

Oh my goodness...it has been so crazy. Let me bring you up to speed. My kids broke yet another keyboard on my computer. I have been using the on-screen keyboard. If you know anything about those then you know that it takes a long time to type! I just simply didn't have the patience for it. Also, I have been extra anti-social lately. I have had the worst flashbacks of every last back stab and betrayal I have ever had. I walk around shaking it off like I am crazier than usual. Sometimes, I worry about me! I have decided to try to get social security benefits. I have tried to work but have actually turned down 4 jobs because of fear of being around people. My meds still aren't right. To update everyone, my son gets out of boy's school/ prison on the 14th of July. My daughter who is still 13 is completely and totally out of control. I had to put her on probation. She was smoking marijuana among other things. She's been hospitalized once. I just keep rolling with the punches.

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New opportunity

My father-in-law gave me an application for GM in Ohio to fill out this weekend. It was perfect timing. I am really scared about the possibility of moving. I am a person who is very scared of change. I usually try to keep the status quo. Plus, I was on the verge of getting into school. Well, after I raise $140 for a GRE and then petition the department for probationary admission. I guess if this works out then I will have a better quality of life plus I will have an opportunity to take classes part-time. I have decided not to get rid of my home in Indiana. I have arranged to have my uncle-in-law hold it down for me. I don't know. If they call I will go but I am scared. I am so scared of people. They have never treated me right. I am a loner and very anti-social. I was made that way over the years by mistreatment.

Thursday

I have taught three days in a row...I am still feeling really bad but I am pushing through it. It's hard because I have always been the type of person that can hold down 2-3 jobs and still have energy to go around. I can't maintain that type of energy anymore. This body pain is chronic. I have lab slips for blood work but have been unable for one reason or another to make it. Gas is rough. It seems like we don't go anywhere unless we are already going out or headed that way. I have an SUV and it costs $75 to fill up! What was I thinking?

Life

Things are going alright. I am still having a lot of health problems. I am tired all of the time. My husband has been less paranoid so I have been able to go back to substitute teaching. He also has learned that if I don't work then things don't go so well. My daughter? Well, she won't listen and thinks she knows everything. I have decided to let her realize she doesn't, to make some mistakes and suffer some consequences. That's all I can do!

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Wore Out

Well, my daughter is back home. I would love to say that things are wonderful but they're not. It is 4:10 in the morning. I haven't slept because my husband is on one of his tangents. Yes, he is paranoid and being very mean. Sometimes I just feel like my heart is going to explode. I just feel like running away sometimes. I feel like I am not SuperWoman anymore. I am sickly and tired. I am fighting to get back into graduate school because my GPA was so bad when I quit back in 2000. I am just wore out.

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Still haven't talked to daughter

I got paid from ASI and so did my husband. Things are looking up financially! It looks like we will finally start getting caught up on bills. My cell phone is still oily! I haven't talked to my daughter today. I am not sure if I should call her or not. What do you think?

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My apologies

To my readers, I am sorry about my last post. I just really had a bad day. I took a long nap and I feel a lot better. I haven't mentioned before...I have some of my photos that I have taken at the bottom of this page. If anyone is interested in any of my photography....please contact me.

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really need to vent throught the tears

You know....it seems like everyone always says things like that no one wants to hear my problems because they have problems of their own! I tell you that this is where I can vent. I have to have somewhere. This is the worst day ever. I am already worried about money. I am worried about my son who is in boy's prison because he wouldn't listen. My husband has schizophrenia and is paranoid every other day. I woke up at 2:30 p.m. today. I was sick like usual. I have been wondering what in the world is going on with me. I haven't been able to work and this only makes things worse financially. My husband's social security is just not enough. I have worked 2-3 jobs forever. I am tired. I have realized that all of my health problems are related to the dumb ass doctor who took me off hormone replacement after my hysterectomy. I am experiencing menopausal symptoms. I swear of it. Man, I am going to go on and on with this post, I know. Let me tell you about my daughter. She knows that my husband is paranoid. She will say things in front of him about how I have other men. I don't! That's the last of my concerns. I am bi-polar myself...high functioning but never the less I am bi-polar. I have one child with bi-polar, one with schizophrenia and the one at boy's school is a sociopath! Having other men is the last of my concerns. She knows this will get him going. The other day I decide to snoop through her myspace and read some messages which sure sound like her 13 year old butt is having sex! I don't know where or how because she goes nowhere. All hell breaks lose with me and her. Now, she's twice as disrespectful. I am on the phone today to find a new doctor for myself and she's mocking me and everything I say. She's on the other line talking to her friend about how stupid I am...blah, blah, blah. I can't even finish my call. I get off the phone and proceed to beating the daylights out of her. I mean I never,ever spank her but I temporarily lost my mind! She is calling me names. I got her dropped off to her biological dad's family (who is no help) and am just hysterical. Her dad was abusive to me....check out my blog about abused women. That's him I am writing about. I call my mom for support. Do you know what that woman told me? This is the woman who was abusive to me! I have tried my best to never ever be physical with my children for that reason but damn, I can't have my own child treating me this way! She told me that I should never have lost control. She tells me that since the Bible says that race mixing is wrong and I went against the bible that this is my punishment with my kids! She had the audacity to part her lips and speak from an ignorant, non-educated mind and say that stupid shit. Yes, I am cussing but hey, this is my domain. I am venting! I am very upset! Then, I take my cell phone which I cherish and put it on my charger on the kitchen counter. I am looking everywhere for the thing. Understand, I have had it for almost a year with Sprint! I have never had one. I have done a wonderful job keeping up with it and the bill! I am calling it. I just know I have lost my mind because what could I have done with it. It had fallen upside down in my frydaddy full of oil hanging from the damn charger. It is saturated! By the good grace of God after cleaning it up, everything but the ringer works! I have 60 days to notify my insurance company and pay a $50 deductible but they don't cover water damage! I guess this includes oil...lol. I have to laugh....I have cried all day. I guess I will have to tell them it was stolen. I don't care. For now, it vibrates. All I can do is write. You know, my mom put me through that racist crap when I was 13 until I grew up. I haven't heard those words since I was young. I can't believe she considers my kids some sort of mongrel debomination. I had to hang up....I was going to say something I would regret. Thanks for all of the comments. I do use angelfood ministries.... thanks for thinking of me. You have no idea how important it is to me to have this blog to vent to. I swear I better not hear one more person tell me to roll with the punches....not today! I am going to pull a Scarlet O-Hara and lay down for a nap.......

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To all

Things are starting to look up a little. I have the business which I do from home. The kids are still wacky as ever but I love them to death. My husband is still needy as well as the kids but with my working at home, I am able to give everyone what they need. I am still under the weather with aches and creaks but it's getting better. I would love to hear from my readers. thayes1106@hotmail.com I am sorry I have been neglecting you. I am not sure why you are still around. I guess my life is stranger than fiction. lol!

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A little better

I still haven't been able to work for a week and a half! I am weak and dizzy. It is crazy. When my kidney doesn't hurt then I have a migraine. My grandfather was taken to the hospital today by ambulance. This is the second time in the past week. I just can't imagine life without my grandpa.

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Sick

I have been down for a week. Understand that it takes a lot for me to be so sick that I can't function at all. I was there this week. Turns out it was a kidney infection. So then by coming off all of the caffeine now I have a migraine out of this world. Coffee, drugs, pressure points, nothing at all is helping! Haven't substitute taught in a week and a half! Great, huh?

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Things are awful

I missed my kids baseball tryouts today. Their was snow on the ground. My grandfather went to the hospital this morning. My daughter has been having some problems. Everything is just awful! I am really stressed out! I haven't even had the time to write.

Well I may have a writing job

I had the chance to submit an article today for consideration. I am trying to be a contributing writer for this one particular company. Maybe things are looking up. Still no word on my tax money. So far I haven't rocked the boat. I am scared to brag on how well things are going. I am scared.

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Thanks guys

Well, I am all over the internet trying to make a buck or two. I stay busy all the time. Check out my site: http://www.payingnetworks.blogspot.com! I am also starting to do some free lance writing. I am really hoping that something comes through for me. I am so glad you guys have followed me over the months as my life evolves.

Money...finally

Well, my friend came through with $40 today. It was enough to at least move my vehicle. I will be so glad when the first of the month rolls around. It seems like everyday life gets harder, the bills get bigger and the kids get worse!

Impossible

Oh my goodness....this has been the two weeks from HELL. I struggled to get to payday Friday. I worked my behind off. My check was short by 2 days. That is like $140. Not only could I not pay one bill in it's entirety and it is Rent a Center so you know they will be knocking on my door Saturday but I couldn't put any and I mean any gas in my SUV. I haven't been able to work this week! I filed my taxes thinking I would get a refund and the IRS has held it for back taxes. My employer will not cut me a check...I have to wait until next Friday! Sucks!

Not as emotional as yesterday

I had a horrible day yesterday. It seemed like I cried all day. I was just so sick of people. I could go on and on about things that people have said and done but I won't. Everyday I become more and more anti-social. I just retreat into my own cyber world where everything is generic.

Today is peaceful

My job hasn't been too hard, my husband and I for now are getting along....knock on wood.....daughter and I aren't fighting. You know, I am really scared to speak of it so soon. I guess I am superstitious to a point.

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Crazy life

Life for me has been crazy. My second to the oldest son is at boy's school. We went to see him and he is all banged up. He has lost a front tooth from being choked unconscious by another inmate. He is thin as a rail from others taking his food. I am broke as a joke and my daughter is still driving me crazy! Other than that, life is grande!

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I am back

I bet you thought that I wasn't coming back. Well, I have been a little down in the dumps. You see, I have major social anxiety disorder. It gets worse with every job I take and the treatment I get from bosses, co-workers, customers, etc. I cannot stand being around people. The only way I can really have friends is like people I have known forever or like a myspace or something. It is like an artificial friendship online. Those who I have known for awhile, I trust and we have an understanding. My ideal location is so far in the jungle that there is no civilization around.

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So tired you keep nodding

Don't you hate it when you are so sleepy that you can't keep your eyes open. I have a class of fourth graders today and I will be lucky if they don't kill each other. I can't wait to go home and sleep If I didn't have a parent-teacher conference directly after school....I would be catching some Z's.

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Back Home

I am glad to be back in Indiana. I had to go to Ohio because my oldest son was in a bad car accident. Everything on his body was broken. He is lucky to be alive. It was a long trip. I get to see my other son, the inmate Wednesday. I haven't seen him in over a month. But hey, what can I say, I gotta roll with the punches.

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Going on a road trip

I have to go to Ohio tomorrow because of my son's accident. I will be there for the whole weekend. He is a sick puppy and banged up pretty badly. It has to get better.

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I know I am strong!

Let me tell you. This has been a rough week and this is only Wednesday. I had to take my husband to the hospital. My oldest son was in a car accident. I found out my dad has Leukemia. It has been hard on me. I know that things have GOT TO look up soon. You know how they say that when it rains it pours!

Positive Attitude

I have a positive attitude today. With everything that has happened over the past week, I feel like today the sun is going to come out. I am proud at myself for my strength and perseverence. I figured since no one else pats me on the back that I will do it for myself. I am ready to go back to school and finish my teaching certification. That is so exciting. I am focused on what I need to do. I am more mature now. It took getting to this point in my life to be able to accomplish goals I had set out for myself. Thanks for listening. Drama Queen

good day!

Today my husband and I went out on a date. No kids, no worries, no stress. It was a nice getaway for us. I felt like a teenager again. I believe it is what we needed. Today was a perfect day. I couldn't have asked for anything better.

Kids

I have 3 kids with mental illnesses. Yes, it is overwhelming at times but I know everything well be alright. I guess these are signs of the times. Email me @ thayes1106@hotmail.com and tell me what you think.

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New Attitude

You know, I was upset because my daughter moved in with her grandmother this evening. I felt hurt and betrayed. I know that all things are only temporary. What doesn't kill you will make you stronger. I am writing a book right now called Drama Queen. I am very excited about it's completion which will be very soon. I have a lot of exciting things going on right now. I am not going to let it get me down.

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Stressed

I am wore out. I didn't do anything I was supposed to do today. I slept most of the day after being up most of the night fighting with my daughter and my husband. Have you noticed when you have a problem with a child, it affects your marriage? That's where I am at.

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Another Day, Another Dollar

I am back to the drawing board or chalkboard, should I say. I am at my daughter's school and I have her twice today. She wanted me to not tell anyone that I am her Mom. She is embarrassed because I am fat and cannot dress according to her. Nice, huh? I guess I am a little down today.

Vacation's Over

Well, it was back to work today. I am substitute teaching for a high school teacher today. It is not a bad assignment. At least I get to ease back into work instead of being thrown into it. I am determined to go back to school in August to finish my teaching certification and licensing. I cannot wait. Right now, I am substitute teaching, selling my own products, mystery shopping and trying to make money on my Weblo. I have been very busy. At least things are looking up. I am determined to keep my head above water until I go back to school. Send me your email addresses so I can add you to my blog so you can post. I also can be found on myspace @ thayes1106@myspace.com or hotmail....thayes1106@hotmail.com.

Everything always gets better

Yes, everything always gets better with time. It's like the highs and lows are what you can expect. Where is the middle ground. Can anyone hear me? I want to hear from others about their experiences. Get back with me.

SICK!

I have been sick for 4 days! I need to go to the doctor but my insurance has my assigned doctor to one out of town.....can't get a hold of anyone to change it. I may have to go to the emergency room because my ear is so infected. Still waiting on the boiler man!

Boiler went out!

Our boiler went out last night. We couldn't get a hold of the landlord....1 kerosene heater needed a new wick...has anyone ever tried to change a wick? Couldn't get anyone to help......below zero tonight.....finally got neighbors over to help......still cold! When it rains, it pours!

Life is Hard

It seems like when one thing goes wrong then everything goes wrong. Where are your friends and family when you are going through something? Sometimes total strangers are more of a help. It seems that every week and every month in this world that life is harder. My mom keeps saying that eventually people will have to live together in a communal setting. Single families she has said will no longer be able to function. What do you think? I know I am nervously optimistic about my future on this planet.